Gods of Green Mountain Page 2
Time and again, Baka and Lee-La had to explain their youngest had a touch of the “sun-madness.” Those who had heard Far-Awn’s laughter would look away and sadly agree this must be the case. Though in secret, these same people went home and conferred with each other, and usually agreed they never before had seen a case of sun-madness take on this particular and peculiar manifestation. Those who knew Baka and his family well suspected it was much more than just a temporary touch of sun-madness which troubled the brain of young Far-Awn.
Secretly they were pleased that Baka had at least one failure in his crop of superb children. For in truth, everyone was envious of Baka, who was more successful in everything than anyone else. Too successful in the opinion of some. Who else had twelve sons? Not one.
Baka guessed what his friends thought of Far-Awn, for he himself was a thousand times more guilty of the same thoughts. But then, he had a thousand times more evidence to convince himself the boy was more than a little mad. He was crazy! To add the crowning touch to a long list of bewildering idiosyncrasies, belonging only to someone severely afflicted, the darn boy was often heard singing! Far-Awn was just as indifferent as to who heard him sing as he was indifferent as to who was watching and learning of his other quirks! Oh, he was something to bear. A curse to punish him. There was no more reason for singing than there was reason for smiling.
Reaching desperately for hope, Baka reasoned that the boy could be just maddened by the blazing suns. It happened occasionally. And his brain could be so wind-stirred he didn’t realize all of life was a desperate battle. No need to show joy or laughter. The Gods already knew they existed. Far-Awn didn’t have to call it to their attention. Sooner or later the Gods of that Green Mountain would hear his laughter, or his singing, and in their jealous envy of a mortal’s pleasure, they would take it away. Send down the wind funnels to destroy him—and perhaps everyone and everything else! How many times had he warned his most foolish son of this very thing, uselessly it seemed. Far-Awn never appreciated, or even appeared to take seriously, any of the religious fervors all others so firmly believed.
The rest of the family had to make amends for the boy’s disrespectful behavior. Woefully their spines would bend in supplication. Sorrowfully their shoulders would sag. Longer than ever their dour expressions became—and all just to convince the Gods they had no real cause for envy. Everyone knew they were being punished. They should have stayed rooted, never sprouted legs and used them. The Gods never moved. They stayed where they were. No wonder they were jealous. Living there, by the Green Mountain, beyond the Scarlet Mountains, awaiting their chance for total revenge.
As Baka headed for home, his son following, his head bowed even lower.
2
Far-Awn the Dreamer
That night, when Baka had all his family asleep and secure on their beds of puhlet hides, he went to stand over Far-Awn, studying the strange young face. Though he wondered every day why he had been so cursed by this complex, paradoxical son, paradoxical because deep in his most secret heart, for some reason not understood even by himself, he loved this son more than any of the others. Just to stand here and look at him asleep put a glow of warm pleasure in his heart.
Far-Awn was taller and slimmer than his brothers. His movements were quicker and more agile, giving him a singular kind of grace that made all others seem unnaturally clumsy. But it was more than his odd beauty—if it was beauty. There was something in his face, behind his eyes, something different, something unknown, something that hinted of mysterious forces. When the boy was singing, although Baka would never admit it, a heaviness would lift from his spirit. He could almost forget all the troubles and anxieties that besieged him daily. That was the trouble with things like singing: one should never allow this lightness of spirit; it took the mind from current problems. Forgetting one’s troubles made one unprepared—and that was when disaster was sure to come. It had, time and again. Precedent and experience made the truth. Of necessity, to survive, pleasure had to be snuffed out quick.
As for Far-Awn, he had none of the conflicting doubts that so plagued his father. He knew from his very first remembering that he was different from all of the others. He was unique unto himself. He didn’t have to peer into a pool of underground water to see his reflection to recognize the differences. He felt it inside, deep. Though, loving his father, he would please him by conforming, if he could. When he was very, very young, and very needing of affection, he had struggled mightily to fit the mold his parents would press him into. After awhile, he realized he could never be what they wanted, so he gave up trying. Though it pained him to see his parents so distressed, it pained even more to deny the differences that flowered within him.
He knew his older brothers only tolerated him, considering him weak and feebleminded, if not outright crazy. His slender body was much stronger than any supposed, but who would believe that? Not his father, not his brothers. Condescendingly he was given the easiest of chores; among them, he was shepherd to Baka’s flock of one hundred and forty puhlets.
Just to think of the puhlets caused a smile to curve Far-Awn’s lips. Of all the farm animals, they were his favorite, his pets. There were other animals, but none had been so successfully domesticated and bred as the sturdy and tractable puhlets. No other animal had evolved so physically advantageously, so they, and they alone were able to survive the sudden and drastic climate changes without one bit of shelter. And that alone was a marvel.
Sad though, that the very animals he loved most was the main meat supply. From their hides all on El Sod-a-Por fashioned coverings for their houses. They used the hides for beds, for chairs, for coats. Their fur was spun into a coarse cloth and sewed into dull, unimaginative clothes. Their fat was boiled down and made into soap, their hooves and horns into utensils. Oh, they by far contributed more to the survival of those inhabitants than any other single element—with the exception of their own tenacious, diligent nature.
Besides the weather, the puhlets had only one natural enemy—the warfars! Against the warfars’ sharp fangs and ripping claws they were defenseless. All they could do was run, bleating pitifully all the way. The slinky dark warfars could race like the wind, and howl like evil spirits of the night. But during the day hours, the warfars were notoriously afraid of men. One man or boy alone could scare off a whole pack. Yet, in the dark of night, it was a far different story. At night, those that lived on El Sod-a-Por were just as defenseless as any puhlet, even more so. For the puhlets could at least stay awake.
When the burning winds blew from the desert, a remarkable change would occur; the long straight hairs would stand on end, with each hair follicle fluffing out at the end to form a thick brush of many fibers too transparent to be seen. Plus the fur turned silvery white. The intermeshing hair fibers kept the winds from reaching the delicate pink skins. White reflected the heat away. Years of instinctual behavior patterns had taught each puhlet to tuck its head under the thick neck ruff and protect its eyes and the sensitive membranes of its nose.
When the icy winds screamed down from the bleak, black land of Bay Gar, something equally miraculous happened. Their silvery fur would curl tightly upon itself, keeping the strong winds from separating the hairs, and as the hair began to curl, it changed color, turning to ebony black, thus retaining the natural body heat. Again, the thick neck ruff was used to hide the delicate facial areas. Many a young shepherd had saved his life by lying down with the flock when the devastating winds blew.
Still, a very young puka had a very vulnerable time, just after birth, when they were naked, without even the protection of the yellow-green fuzz. An entire nursery of pukas could be wiped out from the slightest draft, the slightest chill. Too much heat, and they would collapse prostrate, and quickly die. So delicate, so frail, so sensitive were these small creatures at this time, the pukas spent their first few weeks in the sod houses, romping with the human babies.
Because of this intimate closeness, and the daily care of the baby animals,
it was a sad and mournful day when the full-grown puhlet had to be slaughtered. So much was this unhappy day dreaded by the tender-hearted natives, often the most compassionate would wait until their animals were old and ready to die anyway before they could bring down the heavy mallet on the paper-thin skulls. The meat was tough and stringy by then. The fur long past its prime. But there was the satisfaction of knowing the animal had reproduced many times, and been allowed to live out its allotted days.
There were many shepherds on El Sod-a-Por, but in all the hills of the borderlands, upper and lower, not one loved his flock of puhlets more than Far-Awn. He talked to them as if they understood; he sang to them as if he knew they enjoyed it, and long were the miles he walked to discover the rare places where the lushest grasses grew. Far-Awn knew the puhlets were grateful for his care and love. They gazed at him with soft violet eyes of devotion, responding in all the quiet ways they could.
When Far-Awn lay in a field, dreaming of how life could be different, and better, of how life should be happy and enjoyable, without fear of death always hovering so near, the puhlets grazed contentedly, glancing his way from time to time. Because of his presence, however distracted he grew at times, not once had a warfar stolen a calf, for Far-Awn was quick. In a flashing second he could leap to his feet and hurl a stone, and most of the time it found its mark. Cowardly the warfars slunk away—a stone or a stick was enough weapon during the day.
Leaning back against a burran tree, Far-Awn ate his lunch of cheese and bread, and spoke aloud to Musha, his favorite animal, who also lunched nearby. “Men shouldn’t have to hide in the ground like dirt diggers—like insects! Why should we grow old so soon, and die so young?—it’s that work!—that everlasting, perpetual work! There ought to be a way, something, that we could devise to keep the weather out. There has to be some other reason for being alive, other than working—what do you say, Musha?”
Musha bleated, apparently agreeing.
Far-Awn turned his head toward the far Green Mountain, where the Gods were reputed to live. Thoughtfully he gazed. Did they really control the weather? Did they really send the storms as a form of punishment because they were rooted in one spot? If gods they were, couldn’t they grow legs if they wanted? Of course they could. There was another reason for the storms. “Before I die, I’m going to find out,” he said to himself, “just who and what lives in that giant green home.”
Musha looked up, still munching on the grass in his mouth. He too turned to stare thoughtfully at the distant Green Mountain. A soft sighing sound came from his throat.
3
Far-Awn Goes Searching
One day three years later, when Far-Awn was ten, he led his flock of puhlets far from the customary grazing grounds. In that year, more storms than usual had devastated the land. More wind funnels had come to denude the fields and hills with repeated demands of tribute for the Gods. It seemed entirely possible that all the tender young grasses had been destroyed. Only in gullies and other damp recessed areas could any touch of edible food be found. But never were there enough of these areas to satisfy the hunger of each and every one of Far-Awn’s animals.
What life Far-Awn could find growing, he found nearer the cold side than the hot. So ever closer he led his flock to that icy, bleak black land known as Bay Gar. In the twilight zone between the light and the dark, a narrow band of growth struggled from a crack in the cold ground. Hungrily the puhlets fed upon it. When their appetites were satisfied, the day was gone. The first short darkness of night descended.
With it came panic for Far-Awn! No shepherd stayed out all night with his flock. Always they hurried to be home before dark. In the night, the warfars grew bold, fearless. Well they knew what happened to man when night came. Then they could sneak in and use their fangs and claws to kill and eat what they would, animal and shepherd alike. “Oh, Gods that be,” Far-Awn prayed, “keep us safe from the warfars this one night, and I swear I will never again doubt your existence. I vow I will never again be so careless, so thoughtless. I will struggle to be what my father expects!”
And with that, immediately with full darkness, Far-Awn fell deeply asleep. Such was the way of all those humans that lived there. Sleep had to be grabbed quickly before the first sun arose, and the labors unending began anew. Snug among the resting puhlets, Far-Awn was warm and protected from the cold, if not from the warfars.
In the permanent dusky world near the winterlands, the rays of the first sun’s rising penetrated the murkiness only dimly. So it was that Far-Awn slept longer than any other night of his short life.
He awoke suddenly, feeling refreshed and renewed, but strangely lost and disoriented in this hazy, cold place. Sitting up, he looked around and smiled because they had survived the night. There was no blood on the ground, no torn bodies to horrify his eyes. Perhaps the warfars didn’t travel this far north, and confined themselves to the areas where men worked and trod with the puhlets. He said then a quick prayer, thanking the Gods for letting them survive.
He was a far, far walk from home, he knew that. He would have to hurry to reach there by nightfall. And speed was doubly needed for it was nearing the time of birthing for the female puhlets. For the pukas to come in such a distant, unfriendly cold spot, remote from shelter and human care, would be a tragedy that his father would never forgive. Nor would he be able to forgive himself. How could he have gotten himself and his trusting animals in such a predicament? Oh, no wonder his father thought him a fool, a mockery of what a son should be!
To bring the grazing puhlets close, he sounded a trilling call, for some had wandered away, finding another patch of mossy growth. As they closed about him he counted. Disbelieving, he again counted. Now it was a certain thing—six of the female puhlets were missing! The ground wasn’t covered red with blood, so the warfars couldn’t have carried any off. Their way was to kill and eat on the spot, and all this could be done without waking Far-Awn. Once asleep, he couldn’t awaken until the light came. What to do? How could he go home and face his father’s terrible wrath? One animal lost was serious enough, but six? And the eventual loss would be at least double that, with the pukas due any day now—or any minute.
Again and again he sounded his call. Always before, every one of his obedient animals had responded. Always they came running, knowing he knew what was best for them. A sob of panic rose in his throat when the missing failed to respond. Musha rubbed his plush-purple nose consolingly on Far-Awn’s hand. “Don’t think kindly of me, Musha! It’s my fault six of your wives are missing, and the Gods alone know how many of your young!
“I could go and search for them,” he pondered aloud, but what to do with the others? Take them with him—risk all their lives, plus the babies due at any time? Or should he send them home alone, take the chance the warfars wouldn’t slaughter half the herd? His thoughts raced, seeking a solution where there appeared to be none. But why had the puhlets led him here in the first place? For when he thought back, yesterday it had been Musha who had done the leading, not himself. How extraordinary for the timid and acquiescent to unexplainably become aggressive—to come to this unknown land in the first place. And for six to wander off? Could there be a meaning and a purpose to this? If so, was he to let it pass him by? He glanced back at the Green Mountain, frowning with consideration. Good judgment demanded that he lead the one hundred and thirty-four safely home and forget the six lost females. That was the reasonable thing to do. Almost he could hear his father speak these very words, “Use your head, boy! How can you hesitate when comparing the loss of six to one hundred and thirty-four?”—and that was not even speaking of the young so soon expected.
Yet, was he to bypass this unique experience and go meekly home and say, “Yes, I left six. They wandered off, and I didn’t search for them.” No, he could not live with the thought of abandoning them. Right or wrong, he would find the lost six. Out of the dusky coldness he led his charges into the full light of the first sun. He put his hand firmly on Musha’s head. “Mu
sha, I am trusting you to lead all the flock home. You are to go as fast and as quietly as possible. No bleating, no roaming off the trail to search for grasses. Keep together, the youngest in the center—and go fast! Straight home! And if you see or sense the warfars coming, run like crazy! And strike out with those horns on your head! That’s what they’re there for—weapons! And your hooves, they could do some damage too. Fight back for once! If I can throw a stone and they run, you can show some resistance! And in the daylight, they might not come close.”
His lead animal gave him a long searching look, then turned and started down the trail headed for home, going at a fast clip. The reminder of the puhlets began to tentatively follow, looking back in a bewildered way at Far-Awn. “Go on,” he called, “follow Musha! He is your leader today. He will keep you safe.” Oh, how confidently he said that. What chance did a puhlet have against the long sharp fangs of the warfars? None at all, none at all. Determinedly he resisted the pleading violet eyes that looked back at him. “Go home!” he ordered sharply, “and go quietly and fast!”
Standing on a hill, he watched until they were out of sight, gaining speed as they disappeared from his view. All heading toward the memoried place of warmth, safety, and grain.
Far-Awn dropped down on his knees, and woefully, for the first time in his life, he prayed in complete and humble supplication to the Gods of Green Mountain to let his puhlets live to reach home; to keep the storms from coming today; to keep the warfars asleep in their dens.
Then he was on his feet and running, back to where the puhlets had fed on the mossy-green growth. His sharp eyes, almost blue, knowledgeably searched the ground. Soon he found a trail that he thought could be the one left by the missing six puhlets. Only a short way did he follow before he realized, with a sinking heart, that the puhlets were not heading into the day as could be expected! No, instead, every step that he took assured they were going, for a certainty, into those rolling plains of icy inky-dark cold! Why? he wondered. What odor of growing green could have wafted to those puhlets from this place of ice and snow where nothing possibly could grow?